(In)Justice in Iran

July 9, 2009

I am thinking today of the 7 souls, 7 adults, men and women, who were arrested in Iran one year ago, just for being members of the Baha’i Faith. There is no reason for it but abuse, ignorance and persecution of the loved ones of God. They lead exemplary lives. Baha’is do not partake in politics. We believe in the unity of humankind, equality of women and men, education for all. These are the crimes of humanity in today’s world. I would say in today’s Iran, but the Bahai’s are used to severe persecution in their homeland ever since it began there in 1844. God love them, and God give them strength and bestowals of His mercy and grace, to withstand this injustice.

‘O Son of Spirit! The best beloved of all things in My sight is Justice; turn not away therefrom if thou desirest Me, and neglect it not that I may confide in thee. By its aid thou shalt see with thine own eyes and not through the eyes of others, and shalt know of thine own knowledge and not through the knowledge of thy neighbour. Ponder this in thy heart; how it behoveth thee to be. Verily justice is My gift to thee and the sign of My loving-kindness. Set it then before thine eyes.’

 (Baha’u’llah, Book of “The Hidden Words”)

Hidden Words: new topic!

July 8, 2009

At least once a week, I will post a short writing from Baha’u’llah, from a little book called “The Hidden Words”. They are supposed to contain the essence of all the Holy Books of the Prophets, “clothed in the garment of brevity.”

O Son of Spirit!

Possess a pure, kindly and radiant heart, that thine may be a sovereignty ancient, imperishable, and everlasting.

Eclipse of the Moon 2

July 7, 2009

Eclipse of the Moon 2

The Earth,

slowly turning,

places herself

directly between the Sun

and the Moon,

She stands there,

hands on her hips,

refusing to move,

her beauty mirrored

in a shadow

for all in the world to see,

Slowly, she reaches her arms across

the cheesy Man in the Moon,

wiping that silly smile

right off his face! 

But the Moon

makes the Earth

step aside once more,

for He has work to do,

He pulls the deep waters

of the mighty Oceans

to and fro,

to and fro,

The tides rock us

Back to  sleep,

like a baby,

while Wynken, Blynken and Nod

set sail,

off in their wooden shoe,
onto a river of crystal light,
onto a sea of dew.

–CF Black

as a child, I loved hearing the poem of Winken, Blynken and Nod. I wanted to sail away with them in their magic ship, onto the sea of dew.

Eclipse of the Moon

July 7, 2009

Eclipse of the Moon

The moon rises,

bright and full,

over the cold and Wintry night,

Snow had fallen earlier,

covering the frozen pond,

We watch, in awe,

as the darker shadow

creeps across the Bright Orb’s light,

The shape of the Earth,

a larger circle,

slowly stretches across the moon,

It is as if

the Hand of God

-erases-

what was there before,

Contemplates

leaving us in the dark,

forever without Light,

We go about our busy lives

without a thought to where we are,

Then, the movement of the heavens

becomes a play before our eyes,

We are at the mercy

of the movement of the planets,

6 billion souls, dependent

on the light of a single Star,

6 billion souls share the space

of one medium-sized planet

that just happens to have the right combination

of water, and of air,

We would do well to remember

our insignificance,

this movement, this dance of planets,

will continue for eons

without us watching.

                                                                  

–CF Black, 02-20-08

Moon, for what do you wait?

July 7, 2009

I am starting a new category of poetry. Some will be ones that I like, others some that I have written. I am starting with these words of the Indian poet, Tagore, in a children’s book from a set of picture books I am now analyzing. The words are rather strange sounding, rather haunting.

Moon, for what do you wait?

The night opens the flower in secret, and allows the day to give thanks.

Thoughts pass in my mind like flocks of ducks in the sky. I hear the voice of their wings.

The night’s silence, like a deep lamp, is burning with the light of the Milky Way.

The hills are like shouts of children who raise their arms, trying to catch stars.

“Moon, for what do you wait?”

“To salute the sun, for whom I must make way.”

Night’s darkness is a bag that bursts with the gold of the dawn.

“I have lost my dewdrop,” cries the flower to the morning Sun who has lost all its stars.

“Are you too proud to kiss me?” the morning light asks the buttercup.

The trees come up to my window like the yearning of the dumb earth.

The bird-song is the echo of the morning light back from the earth.

The bird wishes it were a cloud, the Cloud wishes it were a bird.

Is not this mountain like a flower, with its petals of hills drinking the sunlight?

The cobweb pretends to catch dewdrops, and catches flies,

it is the tears of the earth that keeps her smiles in bloom.

Roots are the branches down in the earth. Branches are the roots in the air.

The infant flower opens its bud and cries, “Dear World, please do not fade.”

I sit at my window this morning where the world, like a passer-by, stops for a moment,

nods to me and goes.    — by Rabindranath Tagore.

my retreat

July 6, 2009

My office is my retreat. Maybe in the future it will again be inside a screened-in porch at our new house, overlooking our new pond! But as of now there is no screened-in porch.  🙂 

My office is my space. My room with a lock on it (Virginia Woolf)  — No one can come in or out unless I give permission. For a person like me, to have such a space is not a desire, it is a need. My husband is now home 24/7, or if he leaves, he will return shortly. I have no control over when he returns. It doesn’t help when he takes a nap. I also have no control over when he will awake. It is important to have time where you know you will not be interrupted. In the summer here, it is incredibly private. I occasionally hear other professors but hardly. If I am here at 4pm, such as now, everyone else is gone. The place is deserted.

All my books in one place. That is something I have dreamed of for years. There are many good things about having this job.

In “Memorials of the Faithful,” ‘Abdu’l-Baha describes one believer: 

Here too he was a friend to the prisoners and in the Fortress he continued to practice his skill. As usual he was inclined to solitude, apt to stay apart from friend and stranger alike, and much of the time lived by himself.

 (Abdu’l-Baha, Memorials of the Faithful, p. 143)

 HOWEVER, ‘Abdu’l-Baha says in “Tablets of ‘Abdu’l-Baha”, 

O maid-servant of God! This day is not a day of seclusion and solitude, but a day of proclaiming the manifestation of the light of the Beauty of thy Supreme Lord.

 (Abdu’l-Baha, Tablets of Abdu’l-Baha v3, p. 520)

 how can I reconcile this? 🙂

my relationship with money

July 1, 2009

Someday I will write a complete essay on my relationship with money. Suffice it to say right now, that money is the source of learning detachment from all things but God. What a gift.

In our married lives together, we have sent all our kids overseas on very little money. Time and time again, through numerous examples, we have stepped forward on faith alone, and survived, when the answer was not in sight. We have lived without things we previously thought we could not live without. Somehow you get to the next day and the next step and an answer comes forth. The time when you think you must buy groceries, is the time you figure out some very good, creative meals with what you have left until payday.

We are now on the verge of each of us earning good income, which is something we have not had in many years, if ever. With my Phd, I am now earning decent income, paid LOW by university standards and academic jobs but it’s a decent job in these hard economic times. Al was unemployed for a full 8 mos. after moving here. His first paycheck is now expected in the mail. We are beginning a new chapter. The trick is detachment, so that if it stays or if it goes, your faith is unaffected and unshaken. Money is not yours to keep anyway. The only permanent thing about it, is the memories or opportunities you leave behind, from how you used it when it happened to pass through your hands.

“O Son of Man! Should prosperity befall thee, rejoice not, and should abasement come upon thee, grieve not, for both shall pass away and be no more.”

“If poverty overtake thee, be not sad; for in time the Lord of wealth shall visit thee.”  –Baha’u’llah.

walking in South Carolina

June 30, 2009

Al and I have started taking a 3-mile walk every night, usually just before the sun goes down. We walk to the end of the road in front of our house, which ends in a dead end. Along the way this time of year, cicadas are making their loud calling, we see and hear different kinds of birds, and sometimes, something else happens.

Tonight I saw and heard movement in the thick woods on the side of the road. We walked on. On the way back, I saw an animal cross the road far ahead. It looked like either a large dog, or a small deer. Getting closer, we saw it again, peering out, about to cross the road. It was a small fawn. Just large enough not to be spotted. We were too far away to see it closely, but we saw it.

In today’s state newspaper, there was a story of a small black bear being spotted in someone’s back yard, in the county SOUTH of here. With all the forest and woods around us, I’m sure it could be in our back yard next time.

perfume

June 29, 2009

roseI have always loved perfume. Scent matters to me. I love roses, red roses especially. My 2nd favorite is lilacs, then hyacinths for flowers. Favorite perfumes currently are Sand & Sable, Candid from Avon, Lily of the Valley, Wind Song. Timeless from Avon reminds me of my mom’s perfumes so I like it as well.

My mother was a saver. She always had 20-25 bottles of perfume, none of which I was allowed to touch. She also had soaps she never used, and about 30 bottles of powder that sat unopened. One of the pure delights for me, since her passing, is inheriting these collections of sweet-smelling things, and being able to open them and use them at will. None of them are worth 2 cents. It is just a joy for me to have and use them.

Michael Jackson + more

June 27, 2009

MJI have been truly sad at the loss of Michael J. I feel he was one
of the few great artists of all time. He also had a gentle heart.
Many idiosyncracies and probably addicted to pain meds. I do
not believe he molested children. As a performer, he could not
be beat and it is sad his concerts scheduled for London will
never be seen. But it is what it is. His love for humanity and
all living things shines through in his music, Man in the Mirror
being the greatest. Earth song also great. Many love and fun
songs where his power of performance is just exquisite. We
will miss Michael in this world. So many are heart broken at this
loss.

I am spending lots of time at home and terribly bored. But things
have to be sorted through in this next month, before our busy
end of July and visit again to Indiana!

Today I spent time typing up a family history page for good old
James Agnew, so far the patriarch of our family tree! It takes
LOTS of time and I’m glad I signed up to ancestry.com for a
full year. But during the school year my time will be very
limited.

Then came to my office for the past 3 hours and sorted through
junk & papers from umpteen classes. I’m actually finally
organizing 10 years worth of graduate school papers, books,
and odds & ends. All the course I’ve taught over the past 6
years. It is excrutiating. But very good to have it all finally in
my own office. What fun.

Will probably paint my delapidated office this summer sometime.
I don’t know whether or not to ask permission or to just DO IT.
They don’t care & they haven’t painted it in 20-odd years. I’m
contemplating a light lilac, then put up my print that says
“Excellence” with some lilac tints, & a picture of a whale diving,
up on the wall. It’s an odd but inspiring print I found at
Goodwill one time, and it inspired me all through writing my
dissertation last summer.

The sun is going down and I am going home, maybe to take an
evening walk with my honey. Temps are near 100 during the days
but cooler at night.