something to write about later–
Getting my first car in my name,
white Dodge neon, 2006-07, myself 53 yrs old.
when our kids were little, having no car,
resentment toward AL for always taking it,
never understanding my total isolation,
never willing to compromise (ever),
riding the bus for something cheap and fun to do,
the kids choosing where to sit, excited, looking out the windows.
The things you do when you’re poor, home alone, with 4 kids and no car.
The excitement of the Bookmobile
coming to our apts out in the country, not on any bus line.
Sitting on the steps of the apts.,
watching a tractor shake up dirt and dust
as it plowed the corn rows
far across the field from us.
Doctor Grandma 