Doctor Grandma

I went reluctantly to a music night tonight w/ my husband and then of course enjoyed myself thoroughly.

I don’t like going to things where I don’t know people. Moving down here to the south, we are always outsiders and we didn’t know anyone. The friends we have now are mostly from our faith community. I have a hard time going to parties or gatherings where I don’t know anyone. It is not pleasant for me to make “small talk” and try to get to know people. If they talk to me, I’m fine. It’s just hard for me to adventure out and be the instigator. So I come off looking very stuck up I suppose. I am just shy, and it seems to get worse as I get older.

We were treated to an accomplished song writer, guitar player and poet, as well as one who sang before this main person came on, just sitting in someone’s LIVING ROOM. Everyone who attended paid $15. to the poet and he also sold CDs. We didn’t have the extra money but pd the $30. and did not  buy a CD. It was a very enjoyable evening.

He had one new poem which was about writing poems and reading them to others. The main point was, the poet knows what his words mean. The listener has to guess. They may or may not “get it”. Usually, the poem is read, everyone claps and that is where it stops. There is no sharing heart to heart, no real back and forth understandings shared. The audience people would be embarassed to admit they didn’t “get it” even if they didn’t, and everyone just claps politely. So his poem ended with the words, “Why don’t we just talk?”

It occurs to me that what we all really desire and need, is someone to care what the words mean, and talk it out. Actually what we need is to share heart to heart what’s going on within us, with someone else. I wonder with technology, if we are moving away from this heart to heart sharing, and we are just twittering. Or texting. Little quips and jokes are all we get, are all we share. Can 2 people sit face to face and share what is really going on inside them? Do we know how to do this anymore? Or do we just write it on a blog and post it to the world.

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